Annoymaster

Shuddering convulsions through out my body, Tears running down my face. I want to curl up and disappear Far away from all of this. Away from him, His blinding smile, His mesmerizing eyes. I want to go somewhere That I won't be jealous of everyone That knows him better then I do. He changed me for the better, And now, I've lost myself.

Sometimes, when life gets hard I think back to a time when I was five And all I need to be happy Was an imagination to keep me alive My imagination had everything Build a castle with a shovel and pale Build the walls high to keep out all wrong Build the cieling strong to protect me from hale My imagination was fun I had so many toys I could play alone Or with little girls and boys My imagination never dissapointed me It always gave me a new task to try Sometimes it gave me a dragon or beast That I could just barely get by So when life gets a little too rough I just think back to a time when I was five And all I needed to be

I’ve done it all. I’ve written my note, said my goodbyes. All that’s left is to draw the blade down my arm, and my mission will be complete. Mom and Dad are on a date. Katie is at Grandma’s. Yes, everything seems to have fallen into place. I sit, fully clothed, in out large bathtub, and a thought hits me: Do I have any regrets? About killing myself, about leaving behind all those who were truly important to me. Breath deeply, trying to calm myself. I twirl the freshly sharpened razor between my fingers, willing myself to go through with this. So many nights I have laid awaked, planning this night. Waiting for the right t